E214

Oval table of doom,

In that dark hell of a room -

An eye to my pain

Soak up my soul’s pain

From my worst day

When I failed in the fray.

Once again.

Want to scream in the meeting,

A most unfriendly greeting,

Rip out eyes limbs and hair -

Actions totally unfair

To the chosen one and chooser,

When my mind wasn’t looser.

Once again.

Frozen in here and in time,

Working through things in rhyme,

Get back onto the horse,

Try again, but of course,

Get it better, get it right,

Beyond all else - be airtight.

Once again.

But my body’s a cage,

Filled through with rage,

How can I win this battle

When I’m so fucking rattled -

I can’t concentrate at all,

Only want to freefall.

Once again.

So I sit at that table

No longer able

To join in or think

Of a future not chinked

With such failure as seen

In Room E214.

Never again?